Friday, October 14, 2011
Friday, October 7, 2011
All was quiet in the house as everybody was asleep in bed except for me. I was downstairs in the office working on the last minute details for an upcoming HIV/AIDS workshop. I finally decided I was useless for the rest of the night so I headed upstairs to get ready for bed. My oldest daughter Acacia likes to read in bed by the light of her nightlight until she falls asleep. Tonight was no different. I usually go into her room to give her a kiss on the cheek and pet her cat "Lucky" who often sleeps by her side and then I turn out the night light. Tonight she must of been playing out an imaginary community on her floor. There were all sorts of plastic animals, people and make shift buildings scattered across the floor. I partially stepped on what looked like a plastic bed for a 2 inch person. My normal reaction to situations like this is to get upset at how messy her room is and especially when trying to navigate it in the dark without severely injuring myself.
But, I didn't react that way. I stopped and just looked at her peacefully sleeping and scanned over how cute and precious her pretend village looked. I kept thinking to myself that I've got to remember this moment. Remember the sweet innocence of a 10 year old girl. It was all I could do to keep from crying over the fleeting moments in life. Acacia has grown up so fast and I don't want to trivialize those truly special moments.
Someday soon she won't be so innocent and quite possibly have that cynical and somewhat jaded outlook on life like her Dad. Why can't she just stay this age forever!
I know it is selfish of me to want to keep my daughter innocent forever, but time moves at such a rapid rate and they way we live our lives now of days makes me very sad. I guess that is why tonight seems so poignant. I am stopping and taking the time to look at my daughter, really look at her and I appreciate all that she is. I love that her room is a mess and that the light is still on and that the cat is sleeping by her side. It is what being a kid is all about.
I feel sad sometimes when I think how I so often waste time on the computer or TV when my girls are right there growing up before my very eyes.
You can't go back in time to relive what you've missed. These precious moments are but a fleeting glimpse.
What are the moments in your life that are special?
Thursday, September 8, 2011
During our morning routine of riding our bikes around the neighborhood we often take turns telling stories. Anna's stories always seem to be very animated and full of energy. She told me this story from the bible the other day and I knew I had to get it on video. She told the story with great detail and didn't miss a beat. I know the audio is a little shoddy in some spots and the video is shaky too. I just wanted to capture the way she told the story while doing an everyday thing like riding her bike.
I hope to make this a series of Bible stories that Anna will tell.
Saturday, August 27, 2011
I decided to go out and try my hand at some night videography at the Night Bazaar here in Chiang Mai. I wandered around taking various clips here and there. This is just one of several shots.
In post production I added a magic bullet effect called blockbuster to try to give it that cinematic look. My arms were aching after carrying my camera around on a tripod all night.
lens: Canon 70-200mm f2.8 IS USM II
Manfrotto tripod with a 501 fluid head
Post editing with Sony Vegas Pro 10
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
I can't imagine life without my girls! Sometimes I get overwhelmed with emotion when I think about how much I love them. It amazes me when I think about how much I love them and that my love for them pales in comparison to the love that God has for us. I have to remember that when I don't feel very lovable.
Once again I've been practicing with my video and editing skills. I still have so much to learn
Saturday, July 30, 2011
I originally shot this video to practice my skills at running while videotaping. I used my tripod as a steadi cam. I thought the shots were pretty good especially since I was running during most of it. While I was looking at the footage later I kept getting nostalgic about the girls. They seem to be growing so fast and I feel that the time I am spending with them is slowly slipping away. Pretty soon Dad will go from being the coolest guy to being the biggest dork who ever lived. I also can't help but notice how beautiful my girls are. I know I am being biased, but just look at them. They have such a sweet innocence about them that is precious. It makes them look even much more beautiful. God has truly blessed me with two beautiful little girls. How has God blessed you?
Saturday, April 16, 2011
You gotta love this country!!
Songkran is a 3 day country wide water fight that is quite exhuberently celebrated in Chiang Mai. It is actually the Thai New Year that is being celebrated. Songkran is celebrated every April 13-15th, but it usually starts a couple of days before and lingers on afterward too. If you are in Chiang Mai during Songkran this is a must see and if your actually trying to get anything accomplished during Songkran you might as well forget it.
Our wonderful neighbors the Conserva's took their family and our family all over Chiang Mai in the back of their pick up truck for 3 days to partake in the madness. It is something you truly have to see to believe. I wish America did this!
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Music really stirs my soul and makes me feel closer to GOD. I can't count how many times a poignant song will make me cry. I felt compelled to put together this video after listening to this song because I often feel that I may be looking at the world, but not really seeing it. Do you know what I mean? I recently attended a week long workshop on HIV/AIDS in Bangkok and during the workshop there was lots of talk of how we need to reduce stigma and discrimination in the HIV/AIDS community because we are all the body of Christ and when one of us is hurting we are all hurting. We all agreed on that and felt very strongly that we needed to love each other as Christ loved us. During the evenings of the workshop the group went on their own to find dinner on the streets of Bangkok. The area where we were had lots of beggars and I never know how to deal with beggars. Do I give to them and possibly perpetuate their continued begging or do I ignore them and pretend they don't exist? I went to my default and ignored them and tried to pretend they don't exist, because they make me feel uncomfortable. I was feeling like shit because here I am attending a workshop on HIV/AIDS to reduce stigma and discrimination and yet I am intentionally ignoring a person (part of the body of Christ) that is hurting. Which means that I am hurting, but hurting from the lack of my response to my fellow man. I feel like such a fraud sometimes. I decided to go out of my comfort zone the next night and approached a young lady sitting on the overhead walkway that I had walked past the previous three nights. I smiled brightly as I approached her and was greeted with an equally big smile and I asked her what her name is and where she is from. I learned her name is Doi and she is 25 years old and is from Cambodia. She has one child and is living on the streets. It was a little difficult to get the information because she spoke very little Thai and English. I gave her some food and a little bit of money. I felt much better after I got to talk to her and treat her like a human being. It doesn't mean I will always go out of my comfort zone, but I will certainly try harder. What is keeping you from going out of your comfort zone and reaching out to those who are in desperate need? What is GOD showing you that you are not seeing? I've taken these photographs in the video during my time in India and here in Thailand. These are the things that GOD has shown me.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
For the last 2 years CAM has been working with an amazing group of young people by helping them tell their story. These 18 kids ranging in age from 8-17 years old were trained and equipped with cameras to help document their lives and how HIV/AIDS affects them. All the kids are in some way affected by HIV/AIDS either through infection or they are caretakers of family members that are HIV infected. In reality, they have no sense of a normal childhood. They are voiceless and have been put on the margins of society due to no fault of their own. CAM wanted to be a catalyst to help these young impressionable kids process what is happening in their lives and to help them by creating a peer support group. The kids were brought together every 4-6 weeks for fellowship with kids in their own situation and it was a time to share and reflect on what is going on in their lives. During these times together the kids would edit their photos and were working on their scrapbook.
The staff at CAM became more than just people doing their job, they became like family to these young lives. They became the parents of the kids that have lost theirs due to HIV/AIDS. I have been amazed at the resiliency of some of these kids as I hear their tragic stories. Yet, despite their circumstances they are open and upbeat and have a zest for life.
The kids finally got to put together a photo exhibition of their lives and share it with the community. This was also a great chance for them to say how much the people in their lives meant to them. The turn out to see the Photo Exhibition was great and was very well received.
One by one each kid had the opportunity to show his/her exhibition board and explain what the photos represented and how the people in them were important in their lives. In between groups of 4-5 kids showing their photos was a video presentation of their work with music in the background.
I was very impressed with all the time and effort the kids put in on presenting their lives and felt I was watching lives transformed before my very eyes.